tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,


alamak la, i didnt manage to do a lot of things that i wanted to do after the promos. i still havent reinstall my sims la. gah.

and lost 2 is less that 20% downloaded (prison break's even worse) cos my internet connection is a bit screwed up. so much for that broadband shit. GAH.

my brother installed sim city 4. i think i shall go play. hahahahahahaha.

oh, yah. i dreamt that premala suresh, the department head of chemistry for mjc got killed in a car crash. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA...

not.

sorry, my mood change very fast.

i dont know how many people know this, but i dont advocate for blogs which are kept as private. i feel that a blog should be open. everybody should be able to access it. to read it. to link it. if you dont want anybody to do that, THEN DONT SET UP A FREAKING BLOG LA.

at least, that was what i thought.

the thought of setting up another blog, a private one has been popping up in my mind quite a few times over the year. i guessed maybe it's because i have used up all the pages in my diary and i really need a place where i can put down what i really think about certain events, certain stuff and certain people.

or maybe it's because i do not know the people who are reading this blog. i really dont. i have a faint idea, but not a solid one. and it wasnt like this in the past. sometimes, i would like people to tag after they read so that i have an idea who the hell is reading. but, i cant force people to do that, can i? after all, i no longer tag after i read finish reading one's entry. and because i dont know who's reading, i stop blogging about certain events, certain stuff and certain people lest some people get hurt.

some of you may say that i should just you know, blog about what i really think about certain events, certain stuff and certain people. like what i did in the past. but, i guess, the issue last year thought me a lot. yes, i know, its MY blog, i can say what i want to say. i cant and i wont deny that. but, that issue (coupled with some other issues this year and the past) made me realise that words can hurt. yes, its my blog, but i dont want to hurt anybody's feelings. i think its mean. i still stand by what i wrote, but i guessed i could have put it across in a gentler manner. i'm sorry.

i havent been blogging as regularly as i did in the past. and even when i did, most of the times, i blog about stuff that i dont really feel a lot for. the "emo" posts are probably the most "real" posts and even so, i refrain from writing more.

am i making any sense?

i dont know.

maybe its time to take another break.

we shall see.


oh let's go back to the start.