but you wont get to see the tears i cry,


friends.

to me, friends are like a double-edged sword.

and no, i'm not kidding.

because the fact is, they are.

oh sure, i love them.

oh sure, i enjoy being with them.

and i'm sure people out there love their friends and love being with their friends too.

but let us all admit it, there are days when we wish that they would simply just vanish into thin air.

ever had a moment when you are in the middle of a very nice daydream/song/book and are suddenly interrupted by your friend beside you?

or how about you wanting desperately to spend the whole ride to school listening to your song/reading your book/daydreaming but have to make conversation with the person travelling alongside you?

or how about you feeling the desperate need to be alone and there are people swarming all about you, vying for your attention?

or how about you not feeling particularly okay and people are there asking you, "are you okay?" like, hello? how am i supposed to answer that question? if i answer the truth, "no," would i be able to get away with it? there will definitely be follow-up questions, isnt it? and trust me, when you are not feeling particularly okay, the last thing you want to be caught doing is answering questions on "why are you not okay?" and so, i am being cornered into saying, "yes." and then, of course, another different lot of troubles await me. see, now that i am supposed to be okay, i am supposed to mingle. and HA, tell me, who in the right mind will want to mingle when they are in a not-okay mood? of course, one can always maintain a silence in response to a question. but what will happened? our friends will just feel hurt or think that we are just freaking plain rude. looks like there is no way out isnt it?

so, i was thinking, maybe its not so bad being a loner after all. in fact, being lonely could be a blessing in disguise. we can avoid the above situations and HO, lets face it, people, male or female, attract more attention when they're alone. if being a group attracts more attention for you, it can only mean a three things about your group: your group is either made up of a bunch of loud-voiced people, a bunch of giggling girls (-shudders) or a bunch of gays. and besides, all the "leads" in the tv shows today are all loners. peter parker is a loner. so is lucas scott. wolverine was a loner. the list goes on.

but, that said and done, i DO love my friends. i'm happy to know that they are there. and i'm grateful to God for them.


anyway, on to sporty issues now and words cant express my delight over the fact that maria sharapova is queen of centre court no more. but, man, the match was a torture to hear. the shrieks, grunts and stuff, -shudders. no wonder the audience bought ear plugs.

the fia sucks. if mclaren and gang are going to get banned or point deduction for punishment, i will curse the fia like there's no tomorrow. no wait, i'll save that for ferrari. and i dont mind fernando alonso and renault winning now. anybody but ferrari and the michael whatshisname.

speaking of fernando, i hope fernando torres stays in aletico madrid. even if he has to leave, please, i beg you, dont go chelsea. the same goes for michael owen.

anthony le tallec got his ear pierced. tragic.


and tagboard is back. you know the rules.


behind these hazel eyes.